Thursday, June 27, 2013

Merry Half Christmas

So I know I'm still weird for celebrating random holidays, but June 25th was Half Christmas. Like my favorite half holiday ever haha. Taylor and I started celebrating it two years ago when we went caroling at Taco Bell in Santa hats. Priceless. We had only been casually dating for a few months and that night I knew he was my best friend. So we made a non official vow to celebrate it every year! So I had to celebrate this year with out him :(

My day:

It was absolutely the most perfect Christmas I will have until I come home :) We decorated cookies, dressed in ugly sweaters, and went half caroling! A special thank you to my best friend Hunter for celebrating with me! I'm definitely makin this a tradition in my family! So fun!

Taylor's Package:

I sent him and his companion a nice little goodie bag for Half Christmas :) it contained mini hand held fans and hand sanitizer (iron man & starwars brand of course). 

Then I gave Taylor a seperate larger bag to open that contained this cute little teddy bear I found at the dollar tree. Yes THE DOLLAR TREE. In fact I found all my gifta for this package at the dollar tree. Seriously the best place in the world. I also gave him a mini New Testament and some foot deodorizer haha. 

Can't believe it's already been 6 months! I feel so lucky to have been blessed as much as I have since Taylor's been gone. The Lord is mindful of each of us ladies. Trust Him :)



Tuesday, June 25, 2013

National Pink Day

So again, my elder and I are kind of silly and like to celebrate random days of the year.
So Sunday was National Pink Day and I went all out.

From baby pink nails, hot pink rings, magenta skirt, light pink top and a breast cancer awareness pin; I could of auditioned for the next Legally Blonde. Oh and my notepad was pink.

Dear Elder Kozak,

We really missed him, but we still had to celebrate! Taylor's mom, me, and Taylor's brother. 
Happy National Pink Day T! Miss you and hope your having fun out there serving the Lord!!! :)


While Taylor has been away, I've learned a very valuable lesson: You don't have to be sad when things are hard. Its okay to enjoy yourself and make memories while your elder is away. What are you going to be talking about when he gets home if you didn't do anything while he was gone?

Keep you head up & keep celebrating.

Every day is a day closer to when you get to see your elder, what's not to celebrate!

Keep calm and wait on


A lady in pink

Monday, June 24, 2013

6 Months Down

I never thought I'd see the day. I can't even being to fathom that my sweet heart has been gone for half of a year. It feels like eternity since the day he left me and some how it still feels like yesterday I was holding his hand walking down the street. Its a weird life style (being a missionary girlfriend) and I know I talk about it a lot, but it really is the hardest thing I have ever done. I wish  I could say it gets easier with time, but it doesn't. Every day is just different, you have your good days and your bad days. And the farther a long you go in this journey, the less bad days you seem to have. Maybe its because I'm distracting myself, or just use to this lifestyle. But it never gets easier having my best friend so far away from me.

Let's take a journey through the last 6 Months:

December 19th-January 19th

The hardest month of my entire life, yet the most crafty..
I ate a lot of chocolate
Wrote Taylor a letter every single day he was in the MTC...I'm kind of clingy
Dedicated all of my time to making him crafts & packages
Spent Christmas crying wishing he was with me
Went on lots of adventures with my mom
Realized I had no friends
Cried myself to sleep every single night

January 19th-February 19th

Went back to school at BYU-Idaho
Spent the first weeks bed ridden
Was blessed with the most amazing roommates
Made a lot of new friends
Cried every time I got a letter
Got asked on a lot of dates...said no to them all
Made him a super romantic Valentines Day package :)

February 19th-March 19th

Sent Taylor a birthday package :)
Found out (on his birthday) that I got accepted to BYU! How perfect is that?
Went through some serious drama
Started my mission papers

March 19th-April 19th

Got a 3.65! Heck yeah!
Went to festival of colors.
Had a mental break down or two
Started packing my bags to come home
Became addicted to Sammy's milkshakes
Flew home

April 19th-May 19th:

Hated my life
Sat around and did nothing
Missed Taylor MORE THAN EVER
Started this blog!
Got a job!
Submitted my mission papers
Started hanging out with Taylor's family more

May 19th-June 19th

The hardest month by far
Its all been super confusing
Really developed my faith in God's plan for me
Got my call to Santiago Chile!
Sent Taylor a two packages!
Had our 18 month anniversary
Really started focusing on my mission

"We've got this if we want this. I want it. My biggest dream is to live in a big mansion with you in the Celestial Kingdom for all eternity." 

- Elder Taylor Stefan Kozak

Surviving every day with out my best friend is the hardest thing I have ever done. But every email, every letter, every package, every dream: it makes every thing worth it. I know that if this is God's will and I do everything in my power that Taylor and I will be able to be sealed together for time and all eternity. I love him so much and can't wait to see what the next 18 months bring.

Ladies, we can do this. When we compare this moment in our lives to the span of all eternity, it seems so small. And it is. What a small price to pay: Wait two years, while your future husband serves our Master Jesus Christ, and then you can be together forever. FOREVER. Let that word sink into your mind.

Forever: without ever ending

The Lord has great blessings in store for us ladies, He loves us and cares about our dreams and wants. Trust Him. It will all work out for the best, I promise :)

Keep calm and keep waiting,



Tuesday, June 18, 2013

A Message For The Haters

"You're never going to be able to wait that long."
"What if you meet your husband while your elder is away?"
"What if he doesn't wait for you when you get home?"
"You're just going to distract him."
"You know the chances of this working out is like 3%"
"You shouldn't be close minded like that."
"Girlfriends are just trouble before missions."
"What if you come home and you don't want to get married?"

And my personal favorite:

"Its more likely that a missionary will turn gay than have his girlfriend wait for him."

Uhmm.. alright.

But guess what guys:



Even though you've made me doubt myself and cry myself to sleep, I don't feel any bitterness towards you. However, I do have some advice that might be helpful for you:

Mind your own business.

God's plan is different for every one and who are you to tell someone their plan. We are all just trying to align our will with God's. Our path to God is unique and only we know how to get there. So please don't judge someone else on who they choose to love and how they choose to live their life. And next time you feel like being negative: just don't. "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all." You might just save a young girl who is just in love some tears.

A missionary girlfriend